I have not been able to update, so much has happened and most of it unseemly.
Life just wants to sucks sometimes, and when it does you might simply want to throw the towel in and give up.
Am no superhero, I've tried giving up once or twice with no success.
I'd admit, it's rather hard not to be able to give up but it's also a little more interesting this way.
Even though we have to smile or act like there's nothing wrong in cosplay we do have problems. And even though anime characters are simply so flawless and don't get fat -- we do. So don't be so hard on yourself!! I'm trying to say this to myself more often as I'm really a hard critic on myself but it's not working. :|
The world in itself, the people in it, your boss, your co-worker may already be hard on you even the economy might be hard on you (Even the traffic) Try to ease up on yourself cause no one else will know when you need a breather more than YOU.
No matter how heavy the makeup is, or how wide and long the falsies are, there is a heart beating inside that binded/dolled up chest and there are feelings that get hurt when things get said. No matter how you feel the need to be mean, rude or derogatory keep it to yourself. There's always room to be civil in the wide world of the internet.
And as a last tip to people out there who are so engrossed in the hobby:
Unless you're making a stable livelihood at this, I won't suggest making it your entire life. As much as we want to, believe me I'd rather stay at home daily and do shoots and whatnot there's "REAL LIFE" waiting for me 5 days of the week + extra sidelines whenever I need the cash for extravagant locations and materials. I have absolutely ZERO return financially in this costume hobby. And honestly I regret nothing. If you're fine with this, and can support it go ahead. But if you're bothering someone else for money -- then I suggest you learn that it's a tougher world. But if you're quite the independent person...
Remember to always have people who support you, remember that no matter how introverted you are --You still need other people (to talk to/to smile with/and to be weird around)