Appreciation vs Fame
It's something I just want for my efforts, am not looking for fame as I always vehemently say. I just want people to recognize my hard works and smile at me and say "Good work, Kuri! You did well!"
So am definitely happy with the responses I get from my few friends and awesome kind supporters. They are not fans, as fans are impersonal and it's alittle too snobbish for me to say that. I have no fans only supporters and friends (Which is sometimes one and the same)
There are more of these little features (From sites that declare me as fail, to those who are hands down astounded)
I still fail in the eyes of many people, but you know what? I actually have never been pleased with any of the outcomes in regards to shoots and costumes. There's always the regret, "I could've done this better..." and so on and so forth. But due to my ADHD tendencies it overwrites the OC-ness (Attention deficit hyperactivity disorder and Obsessive Compulsiveness) it's honestly a weird psychological combination in me, and am not really proud of it as it's an embarrassing illness that's portrayed comically by even anime. But that's not the point here! These features are honestly heart-warming and I am forever grateful for them. Although I'd like to do better and WOW myself someday soon.