Sorry no pictures for this post.
So there's this weather, and there's the most depressing thing that happened in my life. But you'd never know what that is and I'm never telling. In any case, am at a stage most people go through during high school or so.
"What the hell am I doing with my life" kind of thing...
Knowing what to do with your life
Am half-ass at almost everything I do, I've already given up on painting/sketching. I already told myself they will remain a hobby. But these other things... like cosplay, gaming, web coding, looking for a career that will support me happily- is all becoming quite confusing.
I am awkward at the best definition of the term. Am bad with dealing with people but I get lonely quiet fast. I get depressed just as easily as I get overjoyed.
These aren't the only things I like doing. Which is rather bad for me because I don't have the proper resources to pull it all off. I don't have the time either to make myself good at all of these without using up some for leisure. Should I just give another one up? What's next? I've already given up on playing instruments, and drawing. What else has to go? I hate the fact that I have to work so damned hard only to be so average. It sucks. A LOT.
I know, parts of my country is going downhill and I'm sulking like an idiot. apologies. The weather has gotten into me.